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My Personal Journey to Independence!

True Freedom really comes from within.  If you are living in fear and worry, you are not truly free.  At the same time, you are not connected with your power, and you are manifesting more of that which you are afraid of.  Your physical reality is always a reflection of your inner self.  I recently have completed a phase in my spiritual journey of liberating myself from my own enslaving beliefs and unresolved experiences.

Deep within my core I believed that the owner of property was far more powerful and valuable than the person who lacked in ownership.  What a crock, you may say!  Of course, that is not true!  Well, I knew that.  …in my head.  But your intellect is far from your spiritual knowing that comes from your experiences.  No matter what I thought, this belief was so ingrained with me, every cell in my body screamed that this was the truth.  After all, I’ve lived it.  I’ve experienced it.  ….over numerous lifetimes.  How is one simple thought to measure up against a multitude of experiences saying otherwise?

But… I was ready to heal this and as spirit would have it no other way, I was presented with just the right circumstances that would help me face this.  So over the past two years or so I’ve been dealing with landlords who would connect me with my painful truths and beliefs; that I was powerless unless I owned, that I had no rights unless I owned and that I had no value unless I owned.  Additionally, they would present me with energies of suppression and control around my home, which undoubtedly went all the way back to and beyond the time when my family escaped our home country due to the occupation of communism – all about suppression and control.  Fortunately, I had the right tools and understood, neither of which, by the way, made connecting with my old pain any less painful.  I knew that all of my beliefs, fears and feelings of powerlessness came from my unresolved experiences.  So, I proceeded to heal these unresolved experiences each time I connected with them through the circumstances as they presented themselves.  This wasn’t just one healing session that I held with my self.  These were numerous healing sessions over the course of about a year and a half.  And as a result, I recently was finally able to connect with my power and act from within my power amidst circumstances that would normally render me powerless.  And I am proud to say that I have finally won my own battle and my own independence, much evidenced by my current circumstances!

Since I don’t believe in coincidences, I can only assume that it was by divine design that all this came to a head and I won my battle just in the nick of time for Independence Day.  Never a shortage of divine sense of humor!   ….nor of the amazing orchestration on our behalf and our soul’s journey!  My utmost thanks with much gratitude to the universe, my spirit, my guides, my angels and all the people who participated in my journey!

My wish for you is that you too may win your battles and acquire your personal independence, for that is the only true freedom there is!

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What is Abundance, Really? Part II


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In Part I of my blog I concluded that abundance has nothing to do with money, as I have observed that even in the presents of a lot of money we can still experience fear of not having enough.

So, what exactly is abundance?  Where does it come from?  And how do we acquire it?

Consider for a moment that abundance is a sense of knowing with certainty that there is enough, unaccompanied by any fear or worry.  Much like how we feel about the air we breathe.  Do we worry every time we take a breath whether there will be enough air?  No.  We just breathe.  And every time we draw a breath, indeed there is enough.  Could we have the same sense of knowing about love, friends, water, food, clothing, shelter, beauty, resources, success, fun and even money?

Consider the possibility that abundance is available to us as part of our natural flow of life, much like the air we breathe.  Now consider for a moment that our spirit and the divine energy we are a part of is the source of life that nourishes us and is our timeless and limitless resource we will never run out of!  When we are connected to this life force we have access to all the abundance that already exists.  Thus our sense of knowing that there is enough comes from our connection to our life source, our spirit.

Why then do some of us not experience this sense of knowing, but rather to the contrary?  Why do some of us experience fear of not having enough or fear of running out?  Why do some of us experience lack in the midst of such abundance?

We all have experienced fear at some point or another.  Interestingly, it seems that in the moment of experiencing fear we also feel most disconnected from spirit, the very essence of life that nourishes and creates.  And when we act from fear we strangle the natural flow of life thus blocking our access to the abundance that already is.

Fear seems an effective survival mechanism in emergencies warning us of anything life threatening.  However, it doesn’t seem to serve us as well in the long run.  I’m talking about the fear we experience in the face of no immediate threat.  Where does it come from and why do we feel it?

Throughout my years of spiritual healing I have come to learn that fear comes from our unresolved past and exists in the presents of pain.  If we have previously been bitten by a dog, we now may fear dogs.  If we have previously experienced starvation, we may now be experiencing fear of not having enough to eat.  If we have previously experienced poverty, we may now be experiencing fear of not having enough resources to survive.  You get the picture.  While you are thinking about your own life experiences, consider the possibility that you may have lived more than once.

It is in the wake of our unresolved experiences we view the world through the glasses of fear and not only do we see the world as such, but we create the world as such.  Consider the possibility that we manifest our reality and we do so energetically.  Thus when we carry in our energy field unresolved experiences, we also create with them.  In other words, if we carry a fear of not having enough, our reality will reflect it by “not having enough”.  Our reality always reflects our spiritual energy because we create with it.

In conclusion, limitless abundance is available to us as part of our spiritual energy and natural flow of life.  However, unhealed pain distorts our reality and disconnects us from our natural way of being.

In “Part I” of my blog I ask the question “just how much money is enough?”  In light of our new perspective, I would like to answer that question by saying that no amount of money will ever be enough!  Not if we are attempting to suffocate our fears and worries with money!  How do I know this?  Well, lets just say I’ve attempted this for years!  Without much success, I might add.

We will never fix what’s inside of us with an external remedy.  No amount of money will substitute the power of our spiritual energy.  However, once we remedy what’s inside of us, we have a chance at seeing it reflected in our reality by actually experiencing having enough.

So, how then do we eliminate fear and worry, if all the money in the world can’t?  How do we get back to our natural state of being where we are properly connected to our life source?

In my personal experience, spiritual healing will do just that. Fear exists in the presents of pain.  I’m talking about the pain we have experienced but haven’t fully digested.  In the process of healing, as we integrate our painful experiences and transform our pain into wisdom, fear dissipates.  In the absence of fear and worry we can properly connect with our inner self, our essence, our life source and all the abundance that already exists with our natural state of being.

My wish for you then is that in your search for abundance you may find yourself and discover that you are the abundance you seek!

May you experience real abundance!

Namaste!