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My Personal Journey to Independence!

True Freedom really comes from within.  If you are living in fear and worry, you are not truly free.  At the same time, you are not connected with your power, and you are manifesting more of that which you are afraid of.  Your physical reality is always a reflection of your inner self.  I recently have completed a phase in my spiritual journey of liberating myself from my own enslaving beliefs and unresolved experiences.

Deep within my core I believed that the owner of property was far more powerful and valuable than the person who lacked in ownership.  What a crock, you may say!  Of course, that is not true!  Well, I knew that.  …in my head.  But your intellect is far from your spiritual knowing that comes from your experiences.  No matter what I thought, this belief was so ingrained with me, every cell in my body screamed that this was the truth.  After all, I’ve lived it.  I’ve experienced it.  ….over numerous lifetimes.  How is one simple thought to measure up against a multitude of experiences saying otherwise?

But… I was ready to heal this and as spirit would have it no other way, I was presented with just the right circumstances that would help me face this.  So over the past two years or so I’ve been dealing with landlords who would connect me with my painful truths and beliefs; that I was powerless unless I owned, that I had no rights unless I owned and that I had no value unless I owned.  Additionally, they would present me with energies of suppression and control around my home, which undoubtedly went all the way back to and beyond the time when my family escaped our home country due to the occupation of communism – all about suppression and control.  Fortunately, I had the right tools and understood, neither of which, by the way, made connecting with my old pain any less painful.  I knew that all of my beliefs, fears and feelings of powerlessness came from my unresolved experiences.  So, I proceeded to heal these unresolved experiences each time I connected with them through the circumstances as they presented themselves.  This wasn’t just one healing session that I held with my self.  These were numerous healing sessions over the course of about a year and a half.  And as a result, I recently was finally able to connect with my power and act from within my power amidst circumstances that would normally render me powerless.  And I am proud to say that I have finally won my own battle and my own independence, much evidenced by my current circumstances!

Since I don’t believe in coincidences, I can only assume that it was by divine design that all this came to a head and I won my battle just in the nick of time for Independence Day.  Never a shortage of divine sense of humor!   ….nor of the amazing orchestration on our behalf and our soul’s journey!  My utmost thanks with much gratitude to the universe, my spirit, my guides, my angels and all the people who participated in my journey!

My wish for you is that you too may win your battles and acquire your personal independence, for that is the only true freedom there is!



It’s Time to Take Our Power Back!

I’m sure a lots of you have heard about the changing energies we are experiencing.  As a contributing author, I would like to share with you a portion of my chapter titled “It’s Time to Take Our Power Back” from the book “R*eve*olution – The Return of the Divine Feminine” – compiled by Denye Robbins.  It’s comprised of 40 global women leaders who share their stories of passion, purpose, love and service.

We are coming out of an era of fear, force, control, suppression and separateness; and we are entering the era of love, flow, letting go, allowing and unification.  We are leaving the era of trusting the external: governments, systems, money, authority and television; and we are entering the era of trusting the internal: ourselves, our inner guidance systems, our spirits, our hearts and our wisdom.

May I share with you that it is not governments who govern.  It is you who governs.  It is not money that is your resource.  It is you who is your resource.  It is not laws that guide you.  It is your spirit that guides you. It is not some agency that is your authority.  It is your heart that is your authority.  It is not television but your wisdom that is the source of quality knowledge.  It is all in the power of your spirit!

If you think that nothing is what it seems, that’s because it isn’t.  We have allowed doctors to be the authority on our health, yet it is you and only you who can heal yourself.  We look to change things on the outside, yet the only place we can change things is on our inside.  We have created computers to have less paper and more time, yet we have more paper and less time.  We look to money to solve our problems and look to love as the source of all problems, yet it is love that sustains and heals us, not money.  We spent our life accumulating material possessions at the expense of foregoing valuable experiences, yet we get to take with us when we die only our experiences and none of our possessions.  We have substituted caring for being politically correct.  We have created quick fixes and more problems.  We are the country of most freedoms and yet we incarcerate the most people of all countries.  We preserve our food to last longer, yet we have shortened our health.  In a world where Twinkie has come to outlive us, we live poorly and die well; well preserved, that is.  We have created drugs to not feel, yet we hurt more.  We have created more laws and less responsibility.  We have rejected nature because of its imperfections, and with our perfect chemicals we have created imbalances that are destroying us, failing to realize that we are not above but rather a part of nature.

We keep lowering our educational standards to make ourselves look better instead of increasing our standards and teaching our youth more.  We want to change the world, and the only thing we can change is ourselves.  We start wars trying to teach peace.  We have big healthcare systems and more sick people.  We spend millions of dollars on medical research and have no cures.  We have fast means of communication, fax machines and mobile phones, and no time to talk to our kids.  We have money and no value.  We have food and no nourishment.  We have medicine and no health.  We have more jails and less functioning families.  We have more information and less sense.  Isn’t it maybe time for change?  Well, it isn’t government who is going to change things.  We are!  You and I!

So, how do we change things?  It has to start with each one of us individually.  The only thing we can change is ourselves.  Understand that we can’t fully move into the new energies of love, personal power, flow, oneness and allowing until we release the old energies we’ve been living; fear, force, control, suppression and separateness.  We carry the old energies in our unresolved experiences.  So long as we carry them in our spiritual energy, we keep creating with them.  In order to release them, we must heal and integrate our unresolved experiences.  Only then can we create something different.

My Thoughts on Independence Day

independence declI’ve been contemplating our recent holiday, 4th of July Independence Day and the history behind it.  Undoubtedly it has been a big holiday for the United States.  So, what exactly did we become independent from?   Apparently the 13 colonies back in 1776 were not pleased with the new system which required them to pay taxes on imports of paper, paint, lead, glass and tea.  Ah yes, the popular Boston Tea Party!  From what I can gather our independence was all about freedom from taxation, taxation without representation and freedom from governmental control.  As such in 1776 the 13 colonies declared their independence from the British government, which ultimately lead to the establishment of the United States.

In my contemplation I asked myself just how much of that freedom do we still own today while celebrating our independence?  When looking at what we are being taxed on today, the more appropriate question is “what are we not being taxed on today?”  I wonder just how many people feel properly represented by their government these days?  Just recently I was taken aback noticing how many taxes I was paying on a basic commodity such as food.  I recall a time when that wasn’t the case.  I thought to myself, I don’t remember voting for that.  What happened?   Obviously somebody had thought it was a good idea.  What’s happening to our freedom amidst all the laws, regulations and taxation we keep putting into effect?  Consider the possibility that every time we vote for a new law we give up just a little bit more of our freedom.  It doesn’t matter who voted for it.  It affects us all!

Notice for a moment how laws are being put into effect in an attempt to control someone’s behavior.  Be it a leash law for dogs or mandating the purchase of medical insurance.  Good, bad or ugly ultimately it forces someone’s behavior.  No matter whether we agree with it or not, the irony is that we don’t get more freedom by exerting control, we just get more control.  In the end, we all end up with less choices and more restrictions.

I hate to bring up the example of mandated medical insurance which has been such controversial subject amongst many.  I recently had a conversation with someone about the issue.  They were convinced that some folks who don’t purchase medical insurance go to the emergency room for free and thus drive the cost of health care up for everyone.  So, out of fear of rising costs and to control those folk’s behavior that person was for mandating medical insurance.  But consider for a moment that acting from fear just creates more of that which we are afraid.   And consider for a moment that exerting control on someone else only creates more control for ourselves.  It is based on the principle that like energy attracts like energy.

Now consider for a moment the possibility that the solution isn’t in everyone having medical insurance.  What if the solution lies in everyone using more alternative health care methods and eating healthier foods without preservatives which ultimately would render us more healthy, not needing medical insurance.   However, now because we have exerted control over all those folks who don’t buy medical insurance, we in fact have put up a road block for ourselves in creating naturally something new and different which ultimately would benefit us all in ways our minds can’t conceive of yet.   Isn’t it ultimately going to be more costly for us to pay for two systems?  The one system we are moving out of, which isn’t working for us any longer but is covered by medical insurance and the new system which is not covered by medical insurance and which we are more and more gravitating toward?  So much for keeping down the costs.  In my experience control strangles life and the natural flow.  …and when we act from fear we just create more of that which we don’t want.

So, where did our precious freedom go?  Well, it seems we’ve been giving it away – little by little.  I see more and more people unhappy with life and our government.  However, being that the British are out of the picture, whom do we declare our independence from today?   Our government?   Suppose we got rid of our government,what’s to prevent us from creating another just like it?  We have done exactly that since the declaration of our independence from Britain in 1776?   We have created the government we have today.

Well, I venture to say that if we want different results we must declare our independence from the very energies we used to create with that which we have today; energies such as fear, force and control.  When was the last time you, yes you, acted from fear?  When was the last time you attempted to force or control someone’s behavior?  …punished or threatened your child to get them to do what you wanted?  …or voted for a law forcing someone’s behavior you didn’t like?

Oh, I do believe we can change the world.  But the only way we’ll change  our world is by changing ourselves from within!

Happy Independence!

Relax, it’s not up to us to figure out the “How”


Recently I was reminded of a little truth that gave me big peace of mind.  It is not up to us to figure out the “how”.  Our spirit and the universe always guides us to help us achieve our soul’s aspirations.  It is up to us to listen and follow the guidance.  If we are trying to control the “how” we’re missing the boat because the more we try to control, the more we strangle life in the process and cheat ourselves out of the opportunities designed to help us achieve our soul’s desires.  I know it is easier said than done.  I personally have lost count of the number of times I have done just that – tried to control the “how”, often wondering in frustration why things weren’t working the way I thought they should.

An image comes to mind of my dad swimming in a public pool with my brother who at the time was maybe around 5 years old.  My brother not knowing how to swim and somewhat afraid of the water hung tight around my dad’s neck for the ride of his life.  As my dad tried to swim and submerged himself more into the water, my brother tightened his grip around my dad’s neck.  As my brother held on tighter and tighter it became harder and harder for my dad to swim until eventually my dad,being choked by my brother, started going under.   This in turn caused my brother to choke my dad even harder.  Luckily for the lifeguard who picked up on the seriousness of the situation and came to the rescue while everyone else thought that my dad and my brother were just playing and providing entertainment for everyone.

Well, ’tis the same with life.  How tight is your grip?

I for one have recently published my book “Meeting My Twin Flame”, a personal memoir about my spiritual awakening, a journey my spirit and the universe took me on which I couldn’t have possibly dreamed up in a million years.  I do remember setting some goals, however, prior to my journey.  I am now realizing how miniscual my goals were in comparison to what I received throughout this profound journey; my soul’s true passion and expression.

By the way my book is now available in a variety of ebook formats on www.smashwords.com at http://www.smashwords.com/b/319420 or in kindle format on www.amazon.com.

How much peace of mind would you have if you knew that your spirit and the universe would figure out the “how to” for you?  All you would have to do is listen and follow.  And what would you dare to do if you knew that your spirit and the universe had your back all the time?