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What did you experience around Dec 21st 2012?


imagesCAOK6J15Friday, Dec. 21st, 2012 was supposed to be an interesting day.  It was the last day of the Mayan calendar.  My understanding was that the planets were supposed to align in a special way.  Many of us waited in anticipation of what this shift would bring.  I, for one, fell sick the next day and continued to be sick through Christmas.  All for my highest good, however.  I knew I was personally undergoing a significant spiritual shift based on a choice I had made that Friday evening.  What I didn’t know is that we also experienced a very significant increase in vibration.  It turns out that quite a few people fell sick right around Christmas.  Much like a sudden significant increase in altitude, the vibrational increase seemed to have affected some of us physically.  I suspect that as with altitude, over time our bodies will adjust to it.  May I suggest, however, that you can ask your spirit if you are so inclined to help you rewire your body for the new vibration.  It could be done while you’re sleeping.  Your body may have an easier time of it.

It should make for an interesting 2013 in the higher vibration.  You might see more unresolved issues rising quicker to the surface for healing and clearing.   More of the lower vibration energies might come floating to the surface which means it may seem like there are more negative things happening.  No worries. Anything holding those lower vibrational energies of force, control, suppression, separation etc. is just being flushed out by the higher vibration.  The good news is you are now more than ever before supported to heal and clear out that old baggage.  If you are feeling overwhelmed or lost for what to do, look around you.  There is so much help available to you right now.  There are so many people who have wisdom in the spiritual realm and can help you heal, clear energies or help you understand through a clairvoyant reading.  I, myself, offer 30 min. complimentary first time client consultations to see if we make a good fit in working together.  Don’t be shy in getting help.  This is the time.  It’s happening whether you like it or not.  This is your time, our time!  Enjoy the ride!  Stay in the flow!  Happy New Year!

Experiencing more Joy as a Benefit of Spiritual Healing


As I continue to heal myself, I observe myself experiencing more joy.  Particularly this year I have noticed the wild life more than ever before in previous years.  Not that the animals haven’t been around before, but I seem to be attracting more of them into my life.  At the same time I can’t help but feel such joy and delight in watching them partake in my life.  Earlier this year I had a bear cub on my porch staring at me through my living room window.  A week before I almost ran into what was probably his mama on my walk with my dog.  Believe it or not but in my 12 years in Colorado this is the first time I have encountered bears this up close.  Then there was the family of 6 or 7 raccoons who woke me a number of times at 2 o’clock in the morning scurrying around my porch.  When I finally turned on the porch light to see, I witnessed all seven of them sitting on a wood pile as if on a podium staring at me with their big eyes.  My heart skipped for joy and put a smile on my face.  The scene was well worth being woken up to at 2 o’clock in the morning.   Then there were the two mice who decided to play house with me for a day or two earlier this year walking about my livingroom completely unbothered by my presence.  I’ve never experienced mice so freely running around under my feet.  Then I couldn’t help but notice the abundance and variety of birds that I’ve come to appreciate and watch daily as they drink and take baths in the small dog dish filled with water on my porch.  It amazes me every time how they seem so comfortable with my presence and how they come to drink while I’m standing right next to the bowl.  I also mustn’t forget to mention the squirrels who jump from tree to tree, who share in the water bowl and who give my dog a run for her money every time and taunt her from the hight of the trees.  All such delight, indeed!

But the most delightful experience I had with a hummingbird recently.  I was watering my cucumber patch when suddenly a hummingbird flew into the spray of my hose and hovered for a few seconds.  Then he flew to a nearby fence where he rested and shook himself off.  Then once again he flew into the wide spray of my hose and hovered yet again for a few seconds under the water.  I realized the little bugger was taking a shower.  So when he sat down on the nearby fence again and shook himself off I slightly lifted the hose to shower him some more.  He didn’t quite like that at first and took off, but then came right back.  This time I lifted my hose ever so slightly and sprayed the little hummingbird again.  He allowed it this time and started shaking his wings and enjoying the spray of water showering him.  I can’t even begin to describe the joy I felt.  I don’t recall ever having experienced such delight in an interaction with such tiny critter.  It’s only ironic that the hummingbird spiritually represents JOY.

On the other side of the coin I have known people who have had difficulty experiencing any joy at all in the face of even the most elaborate events.  So, how is it that some of us are able to experience such great joy while others can’t seem to experience any?  And how does this relate to spiritual healing?

It seems that we experience joy more readily when we operate in the higher vibrations.  Living in the lower vibrations we seem to experience far less of it.  The predominant contribution to us living in the lower vibrational energies are our past unresolved traumas.  They seem to weigh us down to the point of lowering us vibrationally.  The more unresolved traumas, the heavier our load, the lower we seem to sink until it becomes almost impossible to manage life, much less experience any joy.  Just look at the people around you who you know that have experienced multiple losses or accidents in a short period of time or who have lived a life of continuous drama.  Drama incidentally is just an expression of our unresolved traumas.  Each unresolved trauma equates to carrying a sack of potatoes weighing us down.  Additionally, a part of our soul is wrapped up in the unresolved experience, leaving us with less creative energy to manage life.  Thus with each added trauma there is literally less of us spiritually in addition to the accumulating weight we must carry.

Spiritual healing allows us to digest the unresolved traumas releasing our creative energy back to us and unburdening us from the extra weight.  Often people experience feeling lighter after a healing,  not realizing that they are also rising vibrationally.  Life just suddenly becomes easier, better and more fun.

Reducing Stress as a Benefit of Spiritual Healing


It is my own personal experience that the more I heal the more at peace I feel.  Similar situations that would have stressed me out in the past, do not faze me today.

So, where does stress come from?  Stress comes from our own anticipation of pain and discomfort given certain circumstances.  But how do we know that we might experience pain and discomfort in certain situations unless we have indeed experienced it?  Thus my point; we experience stress as a result of previous traumas.  A current situation only serves to remind us of the past pain.  Pain is counter survival.  Thus our survival mechanism warns us of the possibility of pain by inducing stress in our bodies whenever we find our selves in similar situations where we have experienced pain before – simply to get us to leave the situation.

But doesn’t everyone experience stress in certain situations, you may ask?  Well, no.  It’s like saying all skiers experience fear of skiing.  The truth is that only the ones who have gotten hurt on a ski slope will experience fear of skiing.  For that same reason not everyone experiences fear of flying or gets stressed when on an airplane.  Only the ones who have crashed before.  Mind you the crash could also be a past life experience.  It is for this same reason we may experience stress around certain circumstances with love, finances, work, kids and so forth.

So, how do we circumvent this survival mechanism that’s inducing stress with us?  Simple.  We heal the past trauma.  By doing so we neutralize or de-activate the emotions or energy in the trauma.  No matter how similar the circumstances, we no longer will have that particular trauma act on us (or re-experience the emotions in it) because it is no longer active even though we still have memory of it.

So, you are feeling stressed?  Observe the circumstances around which you get stressed.  What might be the past trauma?  If you can’t figure it out, allow a spiritual healer to help you heal it.  It is wonderful to know that you can!  It is even more wonderful to experience peace and calm within yourself!

What are the Benefits of Spiritual Healing?

Feeling more peace and calm – less stressed.

Experiencing more joy.

Improving relationships.

Getting rid of physical ailments.

Overcoming blocks and moving forward.

Having more clarity to make decisions.

Being able to manifest what we want.

So, what is Spiritual Healing anyway?


When we experience pain, whether physical, emotional or mental, sometimes it is so intense that we can’t deal with it in the moment and we tend to “shove” it, set it aside.  In other words, we don’t fully digest the experience.  When this happens it becomes a piece of unfinished business attached to our soul.  Our soul wants to learn from our experiences; good, bad or ugly.  However, it cannot learn from those experiences which we haven’t digested.  It’s kind of like our bodies cannot get the nutrients from an undigested piece of brocoli.  The energy in the unhealed experience is live and continues to affect us.  By energy is meant all the emotions in the original experience.  Similar circumstances can trigger these emotions or key us into the experience so that we emotionally re-live it.  More often than not we don’t realize that that’s what’s happening.  We think we are simply having a reaction to our current circumstances.  Although the current circumstances may have triggered it, we are really re-experiencing the unhealed past.  Once we heal the experience, we don’t react to the current.  We are able to act rather than re-act because we are much calmer and centered.

Such unhealed past experiences are where most fear, anxiety, stress, depression and recurring pain come from.  Your soul will keep creating circumstances and drawing to you just the right people to keep reminding you of what needs healing – simply because your soul wants to learn from your experience.  Spiritual healing allows for the past experience to be properly digested and the pain to be transformed to wisdom.  Aside from your soul’s learning you actually get to experience relief from all those unpleasant emotions as well as recurring similar circumstances or recurring physical pain.  A lot of your unhealed experiences may reside in past lives you are completely unaware of.

Even though our natural tendency is to not want to re-visit painful areas of our lives, it really behooves us to re-visit for the purpose of healing.  We never re-experience the full intensity of the original experience, anyway.  Possibly only 10% or so.  We will, however, continue to re-live the past over an over if we don’t heal it, as our soul will not allow us to ignore it.  What we resist persists.  Only when we heal, can we finally let go.  Why keep holding onto the pain?  By not wanting to face our pain we only keep creating more of it.

Are you an optimist, a pessimist or a realist?


Well it is said that if you see the glass as half full you are considered an optimist. If you see it as half empty you are a pessimist. And if you worry that if you stick around long enough you’ll end up having to wash the glass, you are a realist.
Interesting how we can look at the same thing and see something different. That’s called perspective. That’s why we can experience life differently by simply altering our perspective.

Whom Does Forgiveness Ultimately Benefit?


Forgiveness is an interesting subject.  I use the energy of forgiveness in my healing practices all the time …because it heals.  When we forgive we also let go of our feelings of anger, pain, resentment and hostility.  It actually takes a lot of energy to hold on to and maintain negative emotions such as anger.  Withholding forgiveness is like drinking venom attempting to poison our enemy.  And yet, some of us can’t or won’t forgive.  Why is the act of forgiveness so difficult?

Is it because we think that by forgiving we release the other person from their responsibility of their actions and thus they will not have to pay for what they did?  Or is it because we so desperately try to feel powerful thinking that by withholding our forgiveness we can make the other suffer?

But, why do we want to take on the responsibility of making someone else pay?  In our universe, every action has its price regardless.  We all must pay our dues.  We all have our lessons to learn.  And ultimately we all stand before our own personal judge.  Do we really have the power to make the other suffer?   We may go through the motions and at best hope that our actions cause the other person pain.  But what the other person actually chooses to feels is up to them.  We don’t have control over someone else’s feelings.  Just like no one can make us forgive when we don’t want to.  It’s an internal job.  We only have as much power over someone else as they allow us to have.  By the same token, someone else has only as much power over us as we allow them.

So, how do we get feeling so powerless?  Well, when we blame someone else, when we hold another person responsible for our circumstances, we automatically render ourselves powerless.  By giving away our personal responsibility we also give away our power.  On the other hand, when we recognize our part in the creation of our reality and we assume personal responsibility and truly own our creation, whether painful or wonderful, only then do we also own our power.

Why do we try so hard to affect change where we cannot affect it?  Life only becomes hard when we set ourselves up with impossibilities by taking on someone else’s responsibility and giving away our own.  Ultimately the only change we can affect is within ourselves.

But why is it our responsibility when someone else hurts us, you may ask?  I know this may be difficult for some to accept, but every event, every person in our lives is there because we have drawn them there.  Maybe it was karma balancing itself out from another lifetime.  Maybe we wanted to learn something and had a soul contract with the other person to help teach us.  Or maybe we are repeating history because our soul wants us to finally heal our past.  Whatever the reason, we created our circumstances.  Only when we accept what is truly ours, do we fully stand in our power.  And it is then when forgiveness becomes easy because there is no need to hold a grudge against anyone else.  In fact, it’s never been about anyone else.  It’s always been about ourselves.  And all there is left is the pain we need to heal and the wisdom it holds for us.  …and forgiveness will help us do that.

Like every emotion, FEAR is an indicator


Like every emotion, FEAR is an indicator with a specific purpose. It serves to warn us of danger to aid us in our survival. However when we experience FEAR at the lack of an immediate threat on our lives like for example the FEAR speaking in front of people then FEAR is mearly FALSE EVIDENCE APPEARING REAL. But where does it come from?
It comes from past events where we have experienced pain including past lives. Can such FEAR be healed spiritually? Yes, it can.
So, unless you are facing a bear, there is no reason to keep experiencing FEAR. It is mearly False Evidence Appearing Real that can be spiritually healed.

When will I meet my soul mate?


Recently I’ve been hearing this particular question a lot, “So, when will I meet my soul mate?”  Well, it inspired me to write a blog about the subject of soul mates.  Let me begin by saying that if there is one thing I’ve learned, it is that life is a never ending learning process.  And I ceased to desire a normal life a long time ago, for what is normal anyway?

For whatever reason there seems to exist this ideology that when we refer to a soul mate we are strictly talking about a romantic partner who is the perfect match for us and thus will meet our every need, be at our every bec and call, fill our heart with love and we’ll be smooth sailing in bliss forever after.  Well, I must ask then, “Are you ready?”, for if this is true of soul mates, then there must be someone else out there waiting for you to do and be all that for them.

It never ceases to amaze me how much we tend to seek from others that which we need to do most for ourselves.  And don’t get me wrong, I’ve been there done that.  I too once was seeking the ideal or right partner who would do and be all those wonderful things for me.  But, how can we expect others to love us when we don’t love ourselves?  Your husband or wife doesn’t appreciate you, you say?  Then I must ask, where do you not appreciate yourself?  For others are merely mirrors of how we treat ourselves.

To the contrary of popular belief it is not necessarily our romantic partner who is our soul mate.  Nor do we have only one soul mate.  Nor does it mean that because our partner has hurt us or hasn’t met our expectations that they are not our soul mate.  Sometimes the person we least expect can be our soul mate.  May be it is one of our children whom we don’t have time for because we are all consumed with work.  It could be one of our parents whom we forgot to call because we are too pre-occupied with trying to find our soul mate.  Or maybe it is that friend with whom we haven’t spoken for years.  And sometimes it’s our fury pet who is always by our side but whom we hardly think about.  And other times it’s that boyfriend or girlfriend who took off with all our money and brought us to financial ruin because we wanted to learn a lesson about money.

The best definition of a soul mate I can produce is a soul with whom we’ve traveled in other life times.  We all have multiple soul mates.  In fact, souls tend to travel in soul groups or soul families from one life time to the next.  In my own spiritual journey I have discovered that my mother and I are soul mates, for example.  I know that in another life time she had been my grand daughter and I her grand mother and yet in another life she had been my daughter and I her mother.  And I’m sure there are many more lives we’ve shared.  My mother and I have always had a close connection with each other to the point of sometimes knowing what the other thinks.  We’ve always supported each other in our journeys even across the ocean miles.  My mother resides in Europe and I don’t get to see her very often.  However, her and I are close in heart and soul – and the heart and soul spans all physical distances.

Yet another soul mate of mine is my son, who is very dear to me.  We’ve traveled many lifetimes together as well, playing different roles for each other.  We too have supported each other on many journeys.  And I have discovered that at least two of my friends are my soul mates as well.  We all support each other in different ways.

Then there is my significant other, who is a very unique soul mate indeed.  He is what one might call my twin soul or twin flame.  For those of you who are interested, I will write another blog explaining more closely about twin flames.  For now, I will just say that he is a perfect mirror image of myself and literally the other half of my soul with a bond so strong it reminds me of the song “Hotel California”, by the Eagles.  “You can check out anytime, but you can never leave!”  You think that’s great?  Try it when you’re in pain and want nothing more than to get away.  The ideal mate and smooth sailing, you ask?  Far from it.  The most painful and difficult relationship I have ever experienced. But don’t get me wrong.  It’s also been one of the most profound, amazing and rewarding relationships.  And in the end I’ve come to realize that it is not about finding the right partner or soul mate.  It’s never been about that.  Rather it’s been about finding myself.  But one thing is for certain, you must be ready to meet your twin soul for they will challenge you to your chore.  Sometimes the hardest thing is to look at ourselves.

So to sum it up, some soul mates are there to support us in our journey, others to help us learn lessons, others to help us heal our pasts and yet others to help us grow spiritually and find ourselves.  Ultimately all relationships are about learning about ourselves.  And ultimately we must first meet our own needs and fill our own hearts with love.  No other can do it for us!  We must first achieve that ideal relationship with ourselves before we can even begin to expect to achieve it with another.

But whatever your journey, I want you to know that you are being supported in many ways.  Every person and all the events in your life are there because you have drawn them there, including reading this blog.  What you do with them is up to you.  In the end it’s all about you.  It’s always been about you.

The Bleeding Rose


The Bleeding Rose – An Inspired Oil Painting

Recently I completed an oil painting I called “The Bleeding Rose”.   I was inspired to paint it as a result of my own recent journey of healing certain energies.  I thought I’d share it with you.  How does the saying go?  A picture’s worth a thousand words.  Maybe it’ll  inspire certain thoughts or feelings with you.  If so, I’d love to hear, if you care to share.